Hey, guys...I don't know what day I'm on. Right now, it doesn't really matter.
I'm sorry for not posting on Wednesday or Thursday. Let's just say things got really bad Wednesday night.
For the past couple of weeks, I've been suppressing this anxiety over...I don't know what, everything, nothing...anyway, it kind of all came out Wednesday night...and then continued into Thursday morning. I couldn't stop shaking or worrying that, when I got to school I would have a nervous breakdown (not that I wasn't having one at the time). My mom took me out to breakfast (since school started late for me anyway), and I kind of felt better. Then my mom drove me to school, and I just relapsed. I couldn't stop crying or shaking or freaking out. So I went home.
My mom took me to Super Supplements to get some vitamins that would help me calm down. So now I'm on this stuff called Gaba to keep me calm and 5HTP to help me fall asleep at night and vitamin D supplements.
This sucks, guys. On top of that, I've given up coffee (I figured caffeinated drinks combined with things that were supposed to calm me down probably wasn't a good idea) so I'm facing the side-effects of caffeine withdrawal alongside this anxiety. Fantastic.
On the other hand, these supplements I'm taking now are kind of starting to help me. I think. Like I said, the coffee withdrawal is kind of tweaking me out still, but I'll give it a few more days.
So, there it is. I apologize for not living up to my promise about blogging every day. However, I shall continue this week, now that I'm not freaking out every other minute (and I now have things that will help me not freak out every other minute).
I'm gonna go a try to relax a bit, get some studying done for a psychology test I have tomorrow. I'll keep you guys posted.
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