Didn't mean to leave you guys hanging there last Thursday. I really didn't mean it.
Totally was intending to post Monday night for the weekend (since it was a three-day weekend here for Memorial Day). I woke up Monday morning was unable to get Internet on my computer, even though we could get Internet on every other device in my house...except my computer. Of course.
So that's why I haven't been posting. I didn't have a meltdown this time. Well, my Internet had a meltdown...
Anyway...This week's been uber busy. It's Pops week. Pops week equals panic week.
Pops is kind of our biggest concert of the year. It's like three hours long. We play all of our songs that we did for our big music conference as well as a few new ones (actually, most of Wind Ensemble's songs are new). Wind Ensemble alone has like 40 minutes of music. And that doesn't include Concert Band's music. Or the awards. Or recognition of seniors. Or announcing the new drum major and field marshall for next year. Or funny awards. Or dessert afterwards. It's gonna be a long day...
And it's weird...to think that all of my work in band and music over the past three years is about to come to an end tomorrow night, when we finish the night with the song that won us $10,000 this January. There will be people there tomorrow, in the band, that I've been playing with for the past six years...and I'll probably never play with ever again. One of which is my best friend, and we've sat next to each other for the past six years, and tomorrow is our last concert together. I'm just going to be a puddle tomorrow night...
Not to mention...I'm trying to comprehend to journey I've been on these past three years, not just this past year. It's crazy, unfathomable. Any music experience that I have in college will never be like this, I won't have the experiences that I've had in high school. I won't get to experience it with these people ever again.
And I think that's going to be the hardest part...because, as a man whom I consider a great mentor and friend once said...it's not always about the music; it's the about friendships, the heart, the memories that are made with these people...the good, the bad, the ugly...It's the people that make this band what it is. And I wouldn't trade that for anything.
Days 'til graduation: 6
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Thursday, May 24, 2012
BEDSY Day 164 ( Thur. May 24th, 2012)
Short blog.
Last jazz concert tonight. Everyone did well. Got an award for Outstanding Rhythm section. Went to Sharie's for pie afterwards. I had S'mores pie. It was delicious.
I'm going to bed now. Good night.
Days 'til graduation: 9 (single digits now...)
Last jazz concert tonight. Everyone did well. Got an award for Outstanding Rhythm section. Went to Sharie's for pie afterwards. I had S'mores pie. It was delicious.
I'm going to bed now. Good night.
Days 'til graduation: 9 (single digits now...)
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
BEDSY Day 163 (Wed. May 23rd, 2012)
Today's a bit better than yesterday. I don't feel so...PMS-y. Yeah, that rant yesterday was probably mostly PMS. The many trials of being a woman...
Anyway...I'm at the point in the year where my teachers are running out of things to do. Literally, I spent almost two full class periods sitting around and listening to music on my iPod. I took a test in English this morning that took me about 45 minutes (of a 100-minute class). I made up two quizzes that I had missed, but I still had tons of time left over. Then, in math, we're supposed to be working on our music video (ours is pretty much done, except we have to shoot it, which we'll do outside of class) or our financial project (which is mostly completed outside of class as well). So...there you go. I don't have any more books to read, so that option is no longer valid...I had all of my Chemistry homework done (for once)...I didn't have anything due for psychology...we don't have any more homework left in government (because I'm awesome and don't have any missing assignments).
I don't know what to do with myself. Maybe I'll actually start having a life again...
Speaking of having a life again...my last jazz concert ever is tomorrow night. Not as sad about this one as I was for marching or will be for concert band...but I did have fun in jazz these past two years. It's made me a better musician, and I've come to appreciate this type of music that often gets overlooked in our modern, techno world.
Days 'til graduation: 10 (What...the...heck...)
Anyway...I'm at the point in the year where my teachers are running out of things to do. Literally, I spent almost two full class periods sitting around and listening to music on my iPod. I took a test in English this morning that took me about 45 minutes (of a 100-minute class). I made up two quizzes that I had missed, but I still had tons of time left over. Then, in math, we're supposed to be working on our music video (ours is pretty much done, except we have to shoot it, which we'll do outside of class) or our financial project (which is mostly completed outside of class as well). So...there you go. I don't have any more books to read, so that option is no longer valid...I had all of my Chemistry homework done (for once)...I didn't have anything due for psychology...we don't have any more homework left in government (because I'm awesome and don't have any missing assignments).
I don't know what to do with myself. Maybe I'll actually start having a life again...
Speaking of having a life again...my last jazz concert ever is tomorrow night. Not as sad about this one as I was for marching or will be for concert band...but I did have fun in jazz these past two years. It's made me a better musician, and I've come to appreciate this type of music that often gets overlooked in our modern, techno world.
Days 'til graduation: 10 (What...the...heck...)
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
All the Feelings: BEDSY Day 162 (Tue. May 22nd, 2012)
I was thinking about writing something for tonight...and then it all spewed out on my Tumblr blog. So why don't you head over there, and you can read it. Warning: it's a but emo.
http://emeraldcitynerdfighter.tumblr.com/post/23594267475/so-tonight-was-laurels-night-at-my-school
Days 'til graduation: 11
http://emeraldcitynerdfighter.tumblr.com/post/23594267475/so-tonight-was-laurels-night-at-my-school
Days 'til graduation: 11
Sunday, May 20, 2012
BEDSY Day 160, Plus the Weekend (Sun. May 20th, 2012)
Lots of things happened this weekend. Mostly yesterday. I'm letting it simmer in my mind...I think I'll talk about it more tomorrow. It's kind of like the Hawaii blog. (Except this one won't take four months to write.)
Other than having been gone for the entirety of yesterday, nothing much happened this weekend. Stayed in my pajamas until 4 this afternoon. I have no regrets. On the other hand, I now have my Saturdays back.
Days 'til graduation: 13
Other than having been gone for the entirety of yesterday, nothing much happened this weekend. Stayed in my pajamas until 4 this afternoon. I have no regrets. On the other hand, I now have my Saturdays back.
Days 'til graduation: 13
Thursday, May 17, 2012
BEDSY Day 159 (Thurs. May 17th, 2012)
Most of today was going alright.
After school, I experienced a major mood killer. And now I'm really sad. I don't want to talk about it (I know I'm supposed to on here, and I have the freedom to do so, but it's hard to talk about and hard to explain, so Id' just rather not). I've been trying to cheer myself up ever since.
On the upside, this week was my last full week of school. Every week between now and June 8th is shortened in one way or another. Also, my last two parades are this weekend. No more marching for me after Saturday (yay?).
As usual, glad tomorrow's Friday. Sorry for the emo post.
Days 'til graduation: 14...the rate at which this number is decreasing is beginning to scare me...and excite me.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Psyched Out: BEDSY Day 158 (Wed. May 16th, 2012)
I think I figured out one of the sources of my anxiety.
It's my psychology class.
It's not the people in the class, and it's not the subject matter...it's just how the class is conducted. I don't like it. It makes me anxious. Probably doesn't help that there aren't any windows in the room, either.
See, it's my teacher's first year teaching the AP level psychology class, but she usually teaches the regular psychology, so it shouldn't really be that different....Yet I find myself struggling in that class all the time. I'm pretty sure that I'll make it it out of that class with barely a C. Fantastic. But, seriously...my teacher never assigns homework, and so when she randomly springs it on us, it's highly unlikely that it'll get done by anyone (not just me). Like today, for example, we had to write a paragraph about cultural influences in social psychology. Eight people of the 27 of us turned it in. Eight. On top of that, though, we also had a psychological disorder project due today, which everybody else was focused on. Which everybody turned in. Look at the logic in that.
I don't like my teacher's style of teaching. She does nothing to help us reinforce what we've learned (if so, it's on a rare occasion). She tells us to read (and, in her defense, we are an AP class, so we honestly should be reading, but it's just never been at the top of my priority list) and expects us to know ALL THE THINGS in the chapter by next class. And then she gets mad at us. And then we just discuss the chapter (well, mostly it's her talking) for the next two hours, and I try my hardest not to go stir crazy. And then there are the people who always do amazing work and the people who took regular psychology last year or earlier this year so they already have a leg up on those of us as far as some of the concepts go. I'm sorry...it's just not working for me.
Maybe it's because I've never felt compelled to care about the class. Don't get my wrong, it's not the subject; I actually find psychology quite interesting, and our text book is really informative (the author is actually really funny and adds his own personal opinions and wisecracks every once in a while just to keep you on your toes). I'm not a bad student. I do well in all of my other AP classes, and have all year. But that's because I care about doing well in them. I don't really care about this class. I don't feel like I have a reason to.
Now, that doesn't mean that I'm totally going to slack off for the rest of the year. We have one more project to do, and I intend to put full effort into and do well on it and, hopefully, bring my grade up to a B before graduation.
Sad thing is, she's a really nice person. Her teaching style's a bit wonky, though.
Whew. That rant felt nice. I haven't ranted in a while. I think I needed to.
Still sick, but the crap is slowly but surely moving out of my head. Currently, it's residing behind my nose, so I sound like I'm sick (that annoying nasally sound).
Days 'til graduation: 15
It's my psychology class.
It's not the people in the class, and it's not the subject matter...it's just how the class is conducted. I don't like it. It makes me anxious. Probably doesn't help that there aren't any windows in the room, either.
See, it's my teacher's first year teaching the AP level psychology class, but she usually teaches the regular psychology, so it shouldn't really be that different....Yet I find myself struggling in that class all the time. I'm pretty sure that I'll make it it out of that class with barely a C. Fantastic. But, seriously...my teacher never assigns homework, and so when she randomly springs it on us, it's highly unlikely that it'll get done by anyone (not just me). Like today, for example, we had to write a paragraph about cultural influences in social psychology. Eight people of the 27 of us turned it in. Eight. On top of that, though, we also had a psychological disorder project due today, which everybody else was focused on. Which everybody turned in. Look at the logic in that.
I don't like my teacher's style of teaching. She does nothing to help us reinforce what we've learned (if so, it's on a rare occasion). She tells us to read (and, in her defense, we are an AP class, so we honestly should be reading, but it's just never been at the top of my priority list) and expects us to know ALL THE THINGS in the chapter by next class. And then she gets mad at us. And then we just discuss the chapter (well, mostly it's her talking) for the next two hours, and I try my hardest not to go stir crazy. And then there are the people who always do amazing work and the people who took regular psychology last year or earlier this year so they already have a leg up on those of us as far as some of the concepts go. I'm sorry...it's just not working for me.
Maybe it's because I've never felt compelled to care about the class. Don't get my wrong, it's not the subject; I actually find psychology quite interesting, and our text book is really informative (the author is actually really funny and adds his own personal opinions and wisecracks every once in a while just to keep you on your toes). I'm not a bad student. I do well in all of my other AP classes, and have all year. But that's because I care about doing well in them. I don't really care about this class. I don't feel like I have a reason to.
Now, that doesn't mean that I'm totally going to slack off for the rest of the year. We have one more project to do, and I intend to put full effort into and do well on it and, hopefully, bring my grade up to a B before graduation.
Sad thing is, she's a really nice person. Her teaching style's a bit wonky, though.
Whew. That rant felt nice. I haven't ranted in a while. I think I needed to.
Still sick, but the crap is slowly but surely moving out of my head. Currently, it's residing behind my nose, so I sound like I'm sick (that annoying nasally sound).
Days 'til graduation: 15
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Done: BEDSY Day 157 (Tue. May 15th, 2012)
I'M DONE WITH AP TESTS FOREVER!!!!!!!!
FINALLY!!!!! Now, it's on to the debates...teehee...
Got one more project in AP psych, two more projects in AP Calc, a handful of tests in Chemistry (this is the one class where I'm going to have my final, literally, on my last day of school), and a few chapters of my last English novel left. Guys, I'm almost done.
And my last shot at marching band is this weekend. *sniff*
For now, though...Imma go sleep.
Days 'til graduation: 16
FINALLY!!!!! Now, it's on to the debates...teehee...
Got one more project in AP psych, two more projects in AP Calc, a handful of tests in Chemistry (this is the one class where I'm going to have my final, literally, on my last day of school), and a few chapters of my last English novel left. Guys, I'm almost done.
And my last shot at marching band is this weekend. *sniff*
For now, though...Imma go sleep.
Days 'til graduation: 16
Monday, May 14, 2012
One to Go...:BEDSY Day 156 (Mon. May 14th, 2012)
I'm posting early tonight. I'm also supposed to go to bed early.
'CAUSE MY LAST AP TEST EVER IS TOMORROW MORNING!!!!! YEAHH!!!!
...
Sorry, got a bit excited for a moment...
But, seriously...my last AP test...ever. And it's the one I'm most prepared for. Heck yes! And it's bound to be the easiest. *fist pumps the air*.
I'm really excited about this, if you can't tell. Mostly because, after tomorrow, all of my classes are about to get super easy. In my government class, all we're doing between Wednesday and the end of the year (June 7th) is debating. Every single class. And I have two easy projects in math. My psychology teacher is the only one actually making us work after the AP test. Curses...Other than that, I pretty much have English (which I'll be done with in about two weeks) and Chemistry (this is the only one I actually have to be concerned about...if I do well on the rest of my tests, I might actually pull off an A in the class).
Anyway, I've been studying for the past few hours, and I'm about to head off to bed (I'm aiming for 10:15). I have to get up SUPER early tomorrow in order to get to school on time. My gov teacher is also being awesome and bringing all the kids taking the test (and there are 100 of us...I'm not joking) breakfast. She's fantastic.
Days 'til graduation: 17
'CAUSE MY LAST AP TEST EVER IS TOMORROW MORNING!!!!! YEAHH!!!!
...
Sorry, got a bit excited for a moment...
But, seriously...my last AP test...ever. And it's the one I'm most prepared for. Heck yes! And it's bound to be the easiest. *fist pumps the air*.
I'm really excited about this, if you can't tell. Mostly because, after tomorrow, all of my classes are about to get super easy. In my government class, all we're doing between Wednesday and the end of the year (June 7th) is debating. Every single class. And I have two easy projects in math. My psychology teacher is the only one actually making us work after the AP test. Curses...Other than that, I pretty much have English (which I'll be done with in about two weeks) and Chemistry (this is the only one I actually have to be concerned about...if I do well on the rest of my tests, I might actually pull off an A in the class).
Anyway, I've been studying for the past few hours, and I'm about to head off to bed (I'm aiming for 10:15). I have to get up SUPER early tomorrow in order to get to school on time. My gov teacher is also being awesome and bringing all the kids taking the test (and there are 100 of us...I'm not joking) breakfast. She's fantastic.
Days 'til graduation: 17
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Check-Ups and Catch Ups (a lot of BEDSY days...Sun. May 13th, 2012)
It's me again. The flake.
So...here's the deal...I've been to two doctors in the past two weeks, one for my physical status, one for my mental status, and here's what they found out:
1). I have a type of benign vertigo that's caused by seasonal allergies (to test this, the doctor did all these tests to check my dizziness--which I didn't feel--only to tell me at the end that I did not, in fact, have a brain tumor. Well that's good). Basically, my sinuses get so irritated by whatever's in the air that fluid gets trapped behind my eardrums and makes my balance all wonky. So I have to take antihistamines and decongestants in order to unclog my ears. Apparently it's kind of a common thing. And it runs in my family. Thanks, mom...
2). I am a worrier. But there's no reason why I shouldn't be worrying, with all the stuff that's going on in my life right now. And I need more fun in my life. When my doctor asked me what I do for fun, I couldn't really answer her. It was kind of sad. But it's hard, you know, when your mom works all the time and you don't get out of school until 3:30 every day. And that doesn't even guarantee that you get to go home, though.
So, that's where I've been, stressing to the point of going crazy (or thinking I'm going crazy), being sick (in the body and in the mind...though slightly still in the body...). I don't know where I am as far as what day of BEDSY it is tomorrow (I'll figure it out before I post tomorrow).
Also, I had two AP tests last week that I had to study for. Those are kind of time suckers as well. I have one last AP test on Tuesday, then I'm pretty much done in those classes for the rest of the year. YAY!!
In the mean time, I'm going to try and keep my anxieties in check while finishing up my last month of high school. I promise I'll be better.
Days 'til graduation: 18
P.S. Happy Mother's Day to my wonderful mama and all the other moms of the world : )
So...here's the deal...I've been to two doctors in the past two weeks, one for my physical status, one for my mental status, and here's what they found out:
1). I have a type of benign vertigo that's caused by seasonal allergies (to test this, the doctor did all these tests to check my dizziness--which I didn't feel--only to tell me at the end that I did not, in fact, have a brain tumor. Well that's good). Basically, my sinuses get so irritated by whatever's in the air that fluid gets trapped behind my eardrums and makes my balance all wonky. So I have to take antihistamines and decongestants in order to unclog my ears. Apparently it's kind of a common thing. And it runs in my family. Thanks, mom...
2). I am a worrier. But there's no reason why I shouldn't be worrying, with all the stuff that's going on in my life right now. And I need more fun in my life. When my doctor asked me what I do for fun, I couldn't really answer her. It was kind of sad. But it's hard, you know, when your mom works all the time and you don't get out of school until 3:30 every day. And that doesn't even guarantee that you get to go home, though.
So, that's where I've been, stressing to the point of going crazy (or thinking I'm going crazy), being sick (in the body and in the mind...though slightly still in the body...). I don't know where I am as far as what day of BEDSY it is tomorrow (I'll figure it out before I post tomorrow).
Also, I had two AP tests last week that I had to study for. Those are kind of time suckers as well. I have one last AP test on Tuesday, then I'm pretty much done in those classes for the rest of the year. YAY!!
In the mean time, I'm going to try and keep my anxieties in check while finishing up my last month of high school. I promise I'll be better.
Days 'til graduation: 18
P.S. Happy Mother's Day to my wonderful mama and all the other moms of the world : )
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