Just an update...

Hey guys...

I'm gonna come right out and say it.

I can't blog the rest of this week. It's just not working for me.

So that means you won't hear from me (at least) until the second week of April.

I'm sorry, but that's how it's going to go. I've got stuff going on in my life that I need to really figure out, and I can't be blogging while it's going on.

I'm really really sorry, you guys.... :(

Stupid Allergies: BEDSY Day 127 (Mon. Mar. 26th, 2012)

Spring has finally decided to show it's pretty face. And spark all of my allergies, thus inflicting me with a rather harsh case of hay fever. I've been blowing my brains out all day today. It got particularly bad when I had a timed essay in english. Luckily, I was near my teacher's desk, which had a big box of tissues on it. Score.

And the rest of day pretty much went like that, leaving me with chapped, raw lips and nose, forcing me to consume Tylenol sinus medicine and slather Carmex on my lips. I'm feeling pretty okay right now. I just need to make it to one o'clock on Thursday, and I'm set for Spring Break.

I'm Not Dead (Again): BEDSY Days 124-126, plus the weekend (Sun. Mar. 25th, 2012)

We're here again, my friends.

I felt really sick Wednesday night, didn't get home until almost eleven on Thursday, and you all know that I never post on Fridays, so...here it is. Again.

I'm really sorry, guys. I finally made time to sleep Friday and last night, which has helped me be less anxious about things. On top of that, though, I've got this massive sinus weirdness going on because I'm super sensitive to changes in the air pressure, so I've been feeling really wiped out. Plus I have allergies, which have gotten really bad this week since, all of a sudden, the weather decided to be super nice so all the plants are like "RELEASE ALL THE POLLEN INTO THE AIR!!!" I went on a walk today since I was feeling a little better, but now I'm back to feeling kind of crappy because my allergies kicked in. Stuffed head, runny nose, weepy eyes. My face feels all funny and puffy...At least I'm no longer exhausted, though...

I'll try really hard to post every day this week, guys. I only have to go four days, two of which are half days, so I don't foresee anything too difficult getting in my way of posting.

On the other hand, I finally finished my Senior presentation. Yes! Now all I need to do is practice and present. Thursday, 12:30, you're mine.

BEDSY Day 123 (Tues. Mar. 20th, 2012)

It's a relaxing kind of night here in my house.

For the mot part, I haven't had that much homework this week. It's nice. Gives me time to work on my presentation...The most I have to do is read for my English class. And some chemistry homework. But I'm being given almost all class tomorrow to work on it. So, there's that...

Productive Monday: BEDSY Day 122 (Mon. Mar. 19th, 2012)

Well, I'm feeling better. Not as frantic as I have been in the last few days. Still gonna take my supplements, but I think they are finally starting to kick in...

I felt rather productive this afternoon. Sat down and finished off my calculus homework (something that would usually be done the morning of it being due). Now I'm gonna go read Atonement for a little bit and finish up my work for that (I'm at the part where Robbie, for those who have read the book and/or seen the movie, is rambling on about his past...for around twenty pages). I'm liking not having AP Lit (even though I've heard it's eased up a bit and the teacher is turning into a really cool guy) because I don't feel like I'm frantically trying to read while simultaneously trying to enjoy the books I read. That's the thing...with very few exceptions, I really do enjoy reading for school. I just wish my school did a better job about just letting us talk about books instead of just doing work for them...

Anyway, I'm gonna try and be productive tomorrow as well. I've got senior presentations in a week (yikes) and I have yet to really start writing my ten-minute presentation. It doesn't take much, truthfully. I just need to sit down and pound it out. And that's what I'm gonna do tomorrow.

I like being able to make plans and not freak out about things.

An Explanation...

Hey, guys...I don't know what day I'm on. Right now, it doesn't really matter.

I'm sorry for not posting on Wednesday or Thursday. Let's just say things got really bad Wednesday night.

For the past couple of weeks, I've been suppressing this anxiety over...I don't know what, everything, nothing...anyway, it kind of all came out Wednesday night...and then continued into Thursday morning. I couldn't stop shaking or worrying that, when I got to school I would have a nervous breakdown (not that I wasn't having one at the time). My mom took me out to breakfast (since school started late for me anyway), and I kind of felt better. Then my mom drove me to school, and I just relapsed. I couldn't stop crying or shaking or freaking out. So I went home.

My mom took me to Super Supplements to get some vitamins that would help me calm down. So now I'm on this stuff called Gaba to keep me calm and 5HTP to help me fall asleep at night and vitamin D supplements.

This sucks, guys. On top of that, I've given up coffee (I figured caffeinated drinks combined with things that were supposed to calm me down probably wasn't a good idea) so I'm facing the side-effects of caffeine withdrawal alongside this anxiety. Fantastic.

On the other hand, these supplements I'm taking now are kind of starting to help me. I think. Like I said, the coffee withdrawal is kind of tweaking me out still, but I'll give it a few more days.

So, there it is. I apologize for not living up to my promise about blogging every day. However, I shall continue this week, now that I'm not freaking out every other minute (and I now have things that will help me not freak out every other minute).

I'm gonna go a try to relax a bit, get some studying done for a psychology test I have tomorrow. I'll keep you guys posted.

Oops, I Did It Again...: BEDSY Day 118 (Tues. Mar 12th, 2012)

I fell asleep before posting.

My head's been kind of stuffed up for the last few weeks, so I took some cold medicine right after dinner. I was passed out by 8:30 and didn't wake up until 6:30 this morning.

Believe me, I had sincere intentions to come back and post about how it was nice to only have hour-long classes instead of 100-minute classes. But I guess my body didn't want me to.

My bad, guys...

Last Third: BEDSY Day 117 (Mon. Mar. 12th, 2012)

Yep, that's right. Last trimester of high school. Ever.

Three weeks 'til Spring Break. After that, it's a month until AP tests. Then it's only about three weeks until graudation. This one's gonna fly by...

Had two relatively easy classes today, and one that's probably going to be the bane of my existence for the next few weeks. Had English first this morning. We're starting off reading Ian McEwan's Atonement, which I read earlier this year in my other English class (the class that shall not be named). Kind of looking forward to reading it again.

Then I have Calculus. Same old, same old Calculus...Then band. can't complain much about this schedule.

We'll se what tomorrow brings with my other three classes, though it shouldn't bring many surprises: AP Gov, AP Psych, chemistry. Pretty basic, if you ask me.

Another thing...sophomores have state testing tomorrow, Wednesday, and Thursday...which means that classes don't start for me until 10:00. Yes! Sadly, I don't get to sleep in, but it does give me an opportunity to get some other work done...possibly even get ahead. It would be nice to start off ahead this trimester...

Days 'til Spring Break: 13

Days of school left (approx.): 55

Happiness is...:BEDSY Day 116, plus the weekend (Sun. Mar. 11th, 2012)

...finding a pencil...two kinds of ice cream...coming home again...

...finishing your first real high school musical after spending only two short weeks with it.

...and then walking off that stage with no regrets about my performance.

...finally not feeling sick anymore.

...becoming closer to people you thought you already knew.

...getting asked for an autograph (superficial, I know, but it still made my day).

...knowing that you have less than three months of high school left (even though that is also kind of scary...but exciting).

...anyone and anything at all that's loved by you.


You're a good man, Charlie Brown...

Day 3 in the Land of Study: BEDSY Day 115 (Thur. Mar. 8th, 2012)

Last night before my last two tests...and they're both in the morning...

Chemistry final (which I've heard is awful...and also curved...) and two calculus quizzes (one of which I've heard was rather easy...which is saying something...). Let's do this.

I'm delving into the Land of Study rather late tonight because I had play rehearsal until 6, so I didn't get home until later...second weekend of the musical starts tomorrow.

Got a 94% on my English final. : )

(On a side note...three months from today is graduation.)

Land of Slumber: BEDSY Day 114 (Wed. Mar. 7th, 2012)

One more final down. Three more to go. One chemistry final and two calc finals (Yes, I know I said I had a calc final today...it was moved to Friday).

Tonight is my one night in which I am not in the mystical Land of Study, as I don't have any finals tomorrow (yay!). In that case, I may venture into the Land of Slumber rather early tonight.

Land of Study Day 2: BEDSY Day 113 (Tue. Mar. 6th, 2012)

English and Psychology finals done. Psych test was meh...felt really good about the essay portion, though. English final was obnoxiously easy. Had the entire 95-minute class period to work. Got it done in about a third of the time.

 All that's left are two chemistry finals and two calculus finals. Two tomorrow, two on Friday.

Fantastic.

Studying formulas and flashcards like mad. Perhaps watching Big Bang Theory will help me absorb some of this information.

Day 1 in the Land of Study: BEDSY DAY 112 (Mon, Mar. 5th, 2012)

It's finals week. Ugh...

I have two tests tomorrow, two tests on Wednesday, and two tests on Friday. Oy vey...

Blogs may be short and sweet this week on account of the massive amount of studying I plan on doing.

Now popping in a movie (Ice Age), and off I go to the wonderful Land of Study!

You're A Good Man...:BEDSY Day 111, plus the weekend (Sun. Mar. 4th, 2012)

Well. That was fun.

Seriously, I haven't had this much fun in a long time. This is a great musical. It's light and funny, there's a good moral...I was telling my friend that I was sad that I hadn't gone to more rehearsals, so I didn't get to spend as much time with this play. That's how much I enjoy it.

On the bright side, I get to play it three more times before I have to say good-bye.

Knowing how fun this musical was kind of made me wish I had done the musicals in the past. Then I begin to hear horror stories from a few of my friends. The past two musicals have been pretty serious (Camelot, and The Secret Garden), these three-hour monsters with huge casts that pretty much left people hanging by a thread by the end. Rehearsals went from 4 until 9 some nights...Oy vey. Makes me glad that we have a small cast and a small orchestra.

The fun starts again Thursday night. Until then, I'm going to go watch a movie and relax and go to bed...and try to make it through finals week.

BEDSY Day 110 (Thurs. Mar. 1st, 2012)

It's March, guys! Three months 'til graduation!!

That's about all the excitement I have for today, however.

Late rehearsal tonight, and I'll have another late night tomorrow...and another late night Saturday.

But it should be worth it. This play is really fun, and I enjoy being able to play in the "orchestra" (there is a grand total of seven of us, including our director).

See you guys after opening night!