I'm beat. Physically and mentally.
Lately, I've felt like I've become a verbal punching bag...for several people. And it's exhausting. It's nice to have a friend to whom you can vent and whatnot when you have a bad day...except when it happens all the time. Almost every day, to be exact. And stuff like that has been keeping me up at night for the past few weeks, thus diminishing my already small amount of sleep that I'm getting every night. And then I'm tired and grumpy the next day and don't want to talk to anybody and yet the punching bag continues to be used.
I'm tense and agitated and sad and...Nobody asks if I'm okay, or wonders why I'm not talking or being a grumpy-pants...but I feel like I couldn't tell them because all hell would probably break loose from my mouth, and we don't want that. That could get really messy really quickly. And I feel like I can't tell some people this because apparently, their problems are worse and more important than mine...not that mine are particularly important either, in the scheme of things, but it's a bit annoying when someone undermines all your problems with theirs. It makes you feel insignificant. And nobody should ever feel like that.
I'm sorry for the broodiness of this post, guys. But I've been feeling really down lately, and I think it's because I have all of this negative energy around me. The thing to do is make it all disappear.
It's 8:20 here. Might actually be in bed before 10, though...
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